It was a typical Thursday night I thought, until a friend broke a news minutes before the midweek service ended. Did I say it was a bad news? Well, you could say it was just another challenge God would help you overcome. Apparently, it made me feel bad although I was trying to figure out at the same time how God will turn it into a blessing. I really got dismayed when I heard that we have a co-leader who has issues about my service to God.
I felt bad; really really bad. And I couldn't help myself but keep the feeling till the night was over. A leader opened up to a friend (the one who broke the news to me) issues about my service. She said that our co-leader mentioned about how I independently take over the youth ministry in the church where I am attending. She even talked about being close to several young people which I am not supposed to consolidate. I believe there are still more issues; probably even more serious. I believe the list would go on until I finally quit serving God. I think it won't end unless I transfer to another church or unless Jesus has come.
But God's goodness and faithfulness is beyond description. Every twist and turn in our lives connected to His will happen precisely the way He has planned it. This is the beauty of being with God. This is my faith. Even if you got hurt after hearing the bad news, still you have to hold on to the truth that it was said with a great purpose - to help you be strong.
I was lead to pray for that person who was (and still? I don't know...) raising issues about my service. Ok, I don't want to sound self-righteous here. Oh please. I do talk to God through prayers everyday. Since the dismay was clouding my mind during that night and it was killing me, I opted to talk to God about it and asked Him to clear my thoughts. As my prayer time went on, He lead me to the book of Filemon, (v4-6):
"Idinadalanagin ko na ang pagkakabuklod natin sa isang pananampalataya ay magbunga ng lubos na pagkaunawa sa mga kabutihang dulot ng pagkakaisa kay Cristo."
God reminded me for what reason He has put me in the ministry - to serve Him by loving people. Paul remembers Filemon in prayers thanking God for his life. He has heard so much about Filemon's faith. He prayed to God that their unity in faith would continually result to better understanding of the goodness brought by unity with Christ.
Suddenly I got reminded that the leader who raised up so much concerns about my service is still a sister in faith and if there is anything that is not clear to her, I should not be worried because we are serving one God. Her Boss who happens to be our Father would deal with her the concerns she has about me. I just need to be silent and wait on Him as He does the talking. This unity we have in Christ is amazing indeed.
Also, He cleared my thoughts by telling me that the presence of these people, whether I am comfortable to have them around or not, passed through His knowledge. His will in my life is not to help me become a softhearted man but to be a strong outspoken influential man who will serve Him at all cost.
This is a lesson I really need to master. A lot have said that one enemy that could destroy our passion in serving God is disappointment. But thanks be to God. This unity in faith has more goodness to unfold to those who serve Him.
I felt bad; really really bad. And I couldn't help myself but keep the feeling till the night was over. A leader opened up to a friend (the one who broke the news to me) issues about my service. She said that our co-leader mentioned about how I independently take over the youth ministry in the church where I am attending. She even talked about being close to several young people which I am not supposed to consolidate. I believe there are still more issues; probably even more serious. I believe the list would go on until I finally quit serving God. I think it won't end unless I transfer to another church or unless Jesus has come.
But God's goodness and faithfulness is beyond description. Every twist and turn in our lives connected to His will happen precisely the way He has planned it. This is the beauty of being with God. This is my faith. Even if you got hurt after hearing the bad news, still you have to hold on to the truth that it was said with a great purpose - to help you be strong.
I was lead to pray for that person who was (and still? I don't know...) raising issues about my service. Ok, I don't want to sound self-righteous here. Oh please. I do talk to God through prayers everyday. Since the dismay was clouding my mind during that night and it was killing me, I opted to talk to God about it and asked Him to clear my thoughts. As my prayer time went on, He lead me to the book of Filemon, (v4-6):
"Idinadalanagin ko na ang pagkakabuklod natin sa isang pananampalataya ay magbunga ng lubos na pagkaunawa sa mga kabutihang dulot ng pagkakaisa kay Cristo."
God reminded me for what reason He has put me in the ministry - to serve Him by loving people. Paul remembers Filemon in prayers thanking God for his life. He has heard so much about Filemon's faith. He prayed to God that their unity in faith would continually result to better understanding of the goodness brought by unity with Christ.
Suddenly I got reminded that the leader who raised up so much concerns about my service is still a sister in faith and if there is anything that is not clear to her, I should not be worried because we are serving one God. Her Boss who happens to be our Father would deal with her the concerns she has about me. I just need to be silent and wait on Him as He does the talking. This unity we have in Christ is amazing indeed.
Also, He cleared my thoughts by telling me that the presence of these people, whether I am comfortable to have them around or not, passed through His knowledge. His will in my life is not to help me become a softhearted man but to be a strong outspoken influential man who will serve Him at all cost.
This is a lesson I really need to master. A lot have said that one enemy that could destroy our passion in serving God is disappointment. But thanks be to God. This unity in faith has more goodness to unfold to those who serve Him.
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